Let there be

 Don't hurt yourself hiding your feelings

Show how much you have in your heart

Let there be love, 

Let there be pain, 

Let there be light, 

Let there be dark.

You are more than a smiley face

You feel more than happiness

You know that

Let them know it too.

This is it

Life goes by in a blink of an eye.
People come and go.
We get hurt more than we get happy.

Life is not that easy.
Love is not like what we want it to be.
We get disappointed most of the times and we feel lost and lonely almost everyday.

But we still got ourselves, and that's enough as long as we understand that we came to this world alone
And that's how we're gonna leave it.

Always the same. No, it never changes.

And it hurts.

Hurts like hell.

Makes me feel so bad.

I can’t even tell.

Lots of tears.

Lots of pain.

Can you help me?

Can you stop this thing?

All this feelings.

All this love.

It’s all going to waste.

So tell me, baby.

Why does it never stop?

‘Cause I never had back all that I gave you.

I never had a answered love.

I never had no one, ever.

I already should know.

This things don’t work out with me.

It never did.

So why I tought it was going to be different.

Why I tought it was going to be different this time?

When you're out of your mind.

There are some nights you think that could change your life.
You meet new people and they are so pleasant you'd like to bring them to your life.

This kind of thing usually happens when you're drunk.
So raise your glass and celebrate.
Enjoy while you still have a drink in your mind.
Taste it 'cause it's just for the night or until you fall asleep.


Then you wake up and everything is a blur.
You know something happened but you can't match the things.

You remember people and then you talk but it's not like it was yesterday.
You are shy and you got nothing to say.
You feel lonely and you regret.

You say you'll never get drunk again.
But the feeling is so good you want taste it again.
You want to try. You wanna know if everything that happens when you're out of your mind can happens when you're sober.

It happened to me. Now I have this feeling every moment and people are so pleasant I'd die by their sides, it would be a pleasure. After all, nothing would make sense without them.

Not Today.

Here I am.
This is one of those days when you think your bed is the best place in the world.
But I have a lot of things to do .
I gotta go working and I must go to college at night. But I’m not feeling good at all.

I know I can deal with it, like I’ve been doing my whole life. But not today, no, not today.
Today I just want enjoying my pain without pretending I’m okay, ‘cause I’m not okay at all.

Thank you, 2011

They say our birthday is our day.

Well, I feel that everybody is exciting to wish me a happy birthday, so am I to hear it. But every birthday I feel sad. Don’t ask me why. I really don’t know.

This year I thought it would be different ‘cause I had the best year of my life.

I made new friends and they’re one of the best people I ever knew in my life.

We had lots of fun and we were always together. So I must be thankful ‘cause someone up stairs brought them to me.

I discoreved who is really my friend and who isn’t.

I’ve hurted. ‘Cause if I haven’t it wouldn’t be me. Ok, it’s a sad way of thinking but it’s true. But I had lot of good things happening in my life, then nothing compares and nothing can come against it.

I went to every show I wanted. I saw my favorite singers rocking on the stage and I was always with my bests.

I saw Avril again and it used to be like a dream that I never believed that could come true.

I finally realized and stop complaining about my mother. She’s the best person in the world. And so are my grandpa.

My little Simba is now a ten-year old dog, but he stills looking like a baby for me.

And me. Well, now I’m a 20-year old guy who just have to be thankful for the life I have.

Thank you 2011. Thanks for the happiness and for the people you brought me.

Can you be more clear?

You’re so hard to decode.

I’m not a person who gives up easily, but you never give me reasons to keep trying.

What do I mean to you? Are we friends, at least?

You’re so cold but there are somedays you treat me so good.

I try to understand you, but you never tell me what’s going on.

Yesterday you told me you’re sad, but you don’t want to talk about it anymore.

So how do you want me to act? I don’t even know what happened.

I’m sensible and I notice things. But I not a seer, so I won’t guess things you didn’t tell me.

I just feel that something is not right.

You shold know that I feel desperate the most part of my day, because I’m always trying to figure out your thoughts.

I’m always trying to find when I did something wrong.

I just wanted to say to you what I feel.

But I don’t think you’d understand.

You’re always on my mind. I’m not in yours.

But that’s ok. I don’t love you to love me back.

I love you because I couldn’t choose it.

Now I’m in is this black hole. I really don’t know how get out.

Do you know?